Thank you for taking the time to read this post.
As I write this I am sitting in a street cafe in busy, dirty, noisy night time Delhi, on my way back from two months at the Balanced View Center in Goa. What I wanted to share is the difference I see in how stable and safe I feel in so many different settings. I easily used to feel anxious, unsafe and even afraid when traveling in the East; whenever it got too dirty or exotic I felt somehow threatened and like I couldn’t relax. I remember many sleepless, anxious nights on the road and the contrasting relief that wouldn’t arise until I was safe back in my apartment in Stockholm. This was fine, but I remember wishing that I possessed a stability that wasn’t tied to a place or a person. Now that I am here, upon reflection it is beautiful to see that I can relax and feel at home in this chaotic place. I think it is because more and more I feel at home, content and familiar with my internal data. It’s like I bring home with me wherever I am, home is always what is looking, completely at rest and at ease no matter what appears within or outside. This is so soothing and so freeing! I don’t feel afraid of foreign people or foreign places because I have harmonized the relationship with so many of the thoughts and emotions that I used to take as alien or hostile. Gratitude to the brilliant, custom made support of Balanced View’s empowerment network the Four Mainstays that come with me to all corners of the world, for opening this up and allowing me to realize I am always at home in open intelligence!