What Short Moments Gave Me

It’s always really nice for me to reflect on the gift of short moments.
When I found the Balanced View Training I was struggling with all sorts of things and they seemed of great importance to me.
I was often trying to tweak and improve things about myself, my life and other people, and often frustrated with all the effort it took, often disheartened when it did not go as well as planned and I had to find yet another strategy to deal with everything.
I was coping with my circumstances well enough but I felt that something was missing, and it was quite difficult for me to know what my role in life was, due to being very ill and unable to do most of the things I had been enjoying before.
I felt like an obsolete part of society and as if I had become transparent, most things and people out of reach.
I wanted to change my life and I was convinced that I would not be able to contribute to humanity until I had changed certain things about myself.
Now it’s quite fun five years later to see that the exact same circumstances are no longer afflictive, even if they have not changed.
I no longer seek to change them at all cost, to eradicate them or to pursue different ones.
That is one of the significant gifts of short moments: being at peace with my circumstances, even if they are not my preference, and being at ease with everything that they bring up for me.
Being at ease with how I am, even what I don’t like about myself, even when I feel I said or did the “wrong” thing or when I feel complete despair about my situation. That’s allowed, that’s normal, and it’s no longer gripping. It’s so lovely to no longer be afraid of myself, of what I think and feel.
Being at ease with asking for clear support so that I am truly empowered to take the best care and to do my very best—without any effort.
I have no energy to spare so I really appreciate that short moments take no effort whatsoever.
Resting naturally, relaxing the mind completely, relaxing my ideas about everything and everyone, what a break and what a gift, and I can repeat it as much as I need to. That gives me more focus on the really important things in life!
My mum tells me I am less impulsive, less sorry for myself, and she’s very pleased about it. It’s awesome for me to know that my parents and loved ones no longer need to worry about me because I respond to life in a more mature and peaceful way.
I am more easygoing, flexible and cheerful, not taking people hostage of my moods.
If things don’t go the way I want, it is not such a big deal, and I always, always have the gift of short moments: immediately available, immediately clarifying, instantly opening and expansive, complete self-care on the spot, complete care and respect of others right now. Taking a short moment is always my choice and I am so grateful to be supported in that.

How the Balanced View Training has supported me in my musicianship

I have been playing and studying guitar since I was ten years old. Performing and playing in front of people has always been a part of my musicianship and before I met this teaching there was a lot of thoughts and emotions that I didn’t really know how to handle. Nervousness, creating a personal voice and image, what do people think of me on stage, I am not allowed to fail or play what I think is considered as wrong etc. Maybe you can relate to this in an area in your own life?

So, I remembered when I already did my first Balanced View training, I realised that I could simply relax with all these ideas and concepts I thought I had to keep myself struggling with. I saw that nothing of this is necessary for me to play and enjoy the music I wanted. In fact, the less I put emphasis on these ideas and concepts and simply enjoyed short moments of complete relaxation, repeated many times, the more an effortless approach naturally came about. This was for me magical and something I had been looking for all along!

One other quick thing that I want to share that when I met the teaching I was struggling with the thought of “now when I have been playing music and practicing guitar for a good ten years and reached to the point of where I am today, I can’t just stop playing. Then all of this practicing and level of achievement would be lost. I have to keep up, otherwise, I will be a total failure”. This way of relating to myself was harmful and like putting myself in a mental prison.

The solution: By showing up for training with the community on a regular basis and especially taking support from my trainer and allowing short moments shining forth in everyday life with an easy-going attitude, one day when I reflected on this behaviour, I realised that it had loosened its grip that I thought I had on me. This did not happen over a night, but surely one day I was suddenly free to choose “do I want to continue to play or not?” That feeling of freedom means everything to me and now I really enjoy playing music! What a wondrous marvel!

With much love and gratitude, Johan

Beyond shame and blame

When I met Candice and the Balanced View Teaching I was still a seeker after being a follower of Osho for many years. Born in a family committed to the Free Church where my father was an evangelist preaching the Gospel there was strong faith from the beginning but no real peace. There was ongoing conflicting emotions like shameful, unworthy, not doing my best, not good enough, a saint, a sinner.

When I was 15 I fell in love with a boy who was not part of our church and I got a child. The congregation throw me out and my parents became hostile towards one another. They took different sides in the matter. I left home and everyone I knew went out of my life. No friends had permission to be with me. They could be infected by the demons living in me.
In my solitude the presence of something sustaining me was strong and my communication was more with Jesus and the holy spirit than with people. I was convinced that my lovely daughter was a gift from heaven. We were like twin sisters, and still are. My parents regarded her as their jewel after some time.

After being educated in the nature of mind in Balanced View we are both “finders”, no more seekers! With the introduction to Open Intelligence, the pith instructions from Beloved Candice and the teaching and support system of Balanced View all my relationships were harmonized. I found that it was all about harmonizing data streams, letting everything be as it is.

These last months I have been singing in a choir in church and today I can see the light even in the eyes of those who blamed me before. I hold nothing against them anymore. The belief system they have is only the dynamic energy of open intelligence and doesn’t harm me anymore. They are like everyone believing in contrived systems of good and bad, right and wrong, confused because they know nothing about freedom in immediate perception and the embrace of this moment, as it is.

From disappointed and feeling separate, I am now inclusive and lighthearted. The response I get form others is the same. It is a miracle I can live this way, knowing the truth, not separating anything out. Living as gratitude forevermore.

Meeting the arrogance in me trying to get rid of it, avoiding it, replacing it with some nice approach have faded away. Everything and everyone subsumed in perfect love. All is included. We are all in it together, birthing, living, dying.

Without pain, struggle and exclusion in the past I would not have found Balanced View. It was out of desperation I turned every stone available. And there it was! Bright and clear! I am thankful for everything in the past, for this right now and for what the future brings. I feel graced by the universe to live in this time, having found this teaching and for the privilege of having so many in my family introduced to short moments of open intelligence. Everything goes bright! Nothing to worry about, not even death. I am deeply grateful, living as openness for the benefit of all in every aspect of my life. Truly the most precious gift! Thank you, Beloved Candice!
In love,