What Short Moments Gave Me

It’s always really nice for me to reflect on the gift of short moments.
When I found the Balanced View Training I was struggling with all sorts of things and they seemed of great importance to me.
I was often trying to tweak and improve things about myself, my life and other people, and often frustrated with all the effort it took, often disheartened when it did not go as well as planned and I had to find yet another strategy to deal with everything.
I was coping with my circumstances well enough but I felt that something was missing, and it was quite difficult for me to know what my role in life was, due to being very ill and unable to do most of the things I had been enjoying before.
I felt like an obsolete part of society and as if I had become transparent, most things and people out of reach.
I wanted to change my life and I was convinced that I would not be able to contribute to humanity until I had changed certain things about myself.
Now it’s quite fun five years later to see that the exact same circumstances are no longer afflictive, even if they have not changed.
I no longer seek to change them at all cost, to eradicate them or to pursue different ones.
That is one of the significant gifts of short moments: being at peace with my circumstances, even if they are not my preference, and being at ease with everything that they bring up for me.
Being at ease with how I am, even what I don’t like about myself, even when I feel I said or did the “wrong” thing or when I feel complete despair about my situation. That’s allowed, that’s normal, and it’s no longer gripping. It’s so lovely to no longer be afraid of myself, of what I think and feel.
Being at ease with asking for clear support so that I am truly empowered to take the best care and to do my very best—without any effort.
I have no energy to spare so I really appreciate that short moments take no effort whatsoever.
Resting naturally, relaxing the mind completely, relaxing my ideas about everything and everyone, what a break and what a gift, and I can repeat it as much as I need to. That gives me more focus on the really important things in life!
My mum tells me I am less impulsive, less sorry for myself, and she’s very pleased about it. It’s awesome for me to know that my parents and loved ones no longer need to worry about me because I respond to life in a more mature and peaceful way.
I am more easygoing, flexible and cheerful, not taking people hostage of my moods.
If things don’t go the way I want, it is not such a big deal, and I always, always have the gift of short moments: immediately available, immediately clarifying, instantly opening and expansive, complete self-care on the spot, complete care and respect of others right now. Taking a short moment is always my choice and I am so grateful to be supported in that.

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