I’d like to share this time about my new job and all the empowerment I see in taking on new roles.
For most of my work-life, I’ve had the attitude of wanting to accomplish and strive as little as possible, to just do the bare minimum of what I was expected to and then focus my energy on my free time, relationships, traveling etc etc. Looking back, I can see I was always stingy and felt I needed to guard myself and my energy so that I wouldn’t be exploited by an employer or drain my energy from the things I really wanted to do. I’ve had a new job with new assignments since August and I can see so many shifts and openings, through using the Four Mainstays support-network of the Balanced View Training.
For one thing, through the support of my trainer, I have been able to identify an area where I actually want to contribute my strengths, gifts and talents. This used to be so vague to me and it seemed like there would be no way to make money off of something that I actually enjoy but that work is simply a means to an end.
Secondly, now that I’m more clear about how, why and where I’m contributing my beneficial potency, it’s like a great fire of energy has been released. Spontaneously I want to contribute more than perhaps is asked for, I volunteer to take part in new work teams, to learn about new areas and then lead workshops for my team and I rejoice in learning new skills within the niche I’m in. Where there was stinginess and suspicion, there is now a free-flow of giving, the joy of being part of a powerful team and contributing as fully as I can to the team and the benefit of all.
During these months, I have of course also seen many challenging data related to work come up. First of all, it’s a relief to be assured by community and trainers that it is completely normal to have many negative data streams when expanding one’s comfort zone, learning new skills and contributing in an area that we’re passionate about. Just this is of immense support: I don’t have to waste my energy wondering about the negative data and whether I would be better off somewhere else, but can integrate them and allow them to be until they self-resolve. Specifically, when overwhelm, self-doubt, stress and worry come up, I have decided to go even further in integrating the Four Mainstays into my work day. I start each day with writing out text and look at the sky, if possible I keep talks on in the background while working and during my lunch break I try to watch a video with a trainer. This supports me so much and each time the same old data come up I notice they seem less and less real and substantial. The most important change though has been to be very clear in my motivation: whenever I feel resistance or boredom I return to my overall commitment and intention which is to use each aspect of my everyday qualities and activities to benefit all. The benefits that this brings are hard to put into words: I find it takes the edge off all self-concerns, self-doubts and general negative under mutter and places everything in the context of complete exaltation and honor to contribute!