Something that has always been interesting for me is health and how to stay healthy. Eat the right kind food, workout a lot, think about my body and how to sculpture it, etc.. I was quite obsessed about it I would say.
I loved to do those things but in one way it felt like I was trapped and didn’t have a real choice if I wanted to do it or not. What would happen if I suddenly stopped working out or eat “bad” food? Would all that I had built up be for nothing?
A lot of hope and fear around that area.. Hope that I would feel great if eating the perfect food and workout x amount of hours/day and fear that something terrible would happen if I stopped. Would I be accepted by people around me? Would I feel ok?
I clearly remember the day this shifted within me.
During the Twelve Empowerments, one of Balanced View‘s main courses, I realized that this was something going on within me and a struggle. I hadn’t seen it before.
Taking a closer look on how I actually related to myself in this regard and get to know that I could simply relax with this. I didn’t have to continue on with this game of struggle. Just leave it as it is..
Of course, it’s not so easy to just stop but to use the Four Mainstays, the support structure of Balanced View, I received great support to just relax. Listened to talks, write to my trainer about it and open up in that way, participate in trainings. So beneficial.
And one day, just like that, it struck me.
I am free.
I can stop working out. I can eat whatever food. And it would be fine. It was like being released from a mental prison that I didn’t even know I was in. Quite bold to state it like this but I think people can relate to what I am saying. This was my experience. Now I had an option and not stucked into an idea of how I had to live and go about this.
When I felt I had a choice, the workout started to become more fun and enjoyable, and I felt that my body could relax. My eating habits started to become more relaxed and I felt that I could enjoy all kinds of food and not beat myself up for eating whatever I eat.
It has opened up new ways for what I feel is good for my body when it comes to working out and eating and I feel much more healthy now than ever.
For me it is beautiful and supportive to simply enjoy the training and implement it in a practical way like this, something that provides benefit in everyday life.
I hope this share is supportive and will contribute to those who are reading to know that there is definitely a way to live a relaxed life.
With love and gratitude,